I was always a simple girl, I still am actually. I have a fairly good life, with a few downs but generally always on the middle ground. But I also wasn't your typical girl. I never dreamed of a grand wedding with thousands of guests, I never dreamed of a world tour honeymoon. I just wanted a simple life, but of course, that wouldn't have been all that bad if I had all those trivialities, right? Well, yeah, right, but I didn't.
There are times though, when I regret not wanting those things, not asking for 'em. There are times I regret not demanding for more. I wanted to be given those... Wanted to be given it freely without any demands, but I guess that's just not my luck. Sometimes I see some of my facebook friends have a wonderful time traveling or had a beautiful wedding or had a sweet something from their significant other, I feel envious, that I know I will never have those. But I just count my blessings and know that I am still blessed because I have a good husband.
As my life goes by, I realized that there are a lot of things I have learned to let go. things I had to do without because I simply cannot afford it. There were other things that needed priority. Other stuff that needs my attention. There are times when I get tired of it. There are times when I just wish that all these worries and responsibilities will be taken from me, even for just a little while. That I can just let go, even for a moment. I know that I deserve better, I deserve more, but really at this stage of my life, I'm not sure how to grasp at it anymore. I don't know where to begin. Yes, there are times when I feel like I know what I should do but I'm not willing to do it. Not willing to let go of things that I'm used to. The easiness of just accepting it all. And the fear of what other might think if I pushed through with what was going through my mind.
I dream and continue to dream that one day, when I wake up, I will be the one posting the great images, the wonderful adventure, that I can reach that level where I am the best I can possibly be and that I have reached the pinnacle of my being and I'm where I am really meant to be....
I dream and continue to dream... will you dream with me?
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