Thoughts In Solitude

I honestly never thought that losing you will break my heart so deeply. I remember when I complained so many times to my hubby and even to friends whenever we had disagreements. Even when you got sick, I never involved myself with those trivialities. Never in my wildest dreams have I ever thought that we will become so close that your death will have such an effect on me. Oh, I knew things will change in the house and all that, but I have never imagined that it will impact me so personally. that tears would so freely flow and dare not stop.  I had prayed for your recovery, I had prayed for your peace, I had prayed that God's will be done in your life, seeing how difficult life was becoming for you, but I never thought that when that day did come, I realized I wasn't ready, that I was willing to "serve" you one more day, just so you don't leave us.  But yeah, I knew how difficult life was becoming, as if it wasn't difficult enough as it was with your disease ri...