Slowly but surely I'm relinquishing my duties as head of my parish... I know that I've been wanting to resign for quite a while now, although I never really said it to our parish priest. But I'm tired of all the drama that surrounded that area with so many people in the parish wanting a dip in the water.
Some realizations have dawned on me and it hit hard and I'm not sure how hard it has damaged me.
Though I'd like to believe that things turn out for the better eventually. God has a plan I know. I'm not privy to it, I wish I was, so I don't go down the wrong road and I don't get lost, but sometimes, well, most of the time, God doesn't work that way and so I keep my faith. Its the only thing I am holding on to now.
Its bittersweet knowing that people who are important to you, will not deem you to be so anymore. but I'm happy I'm free from all the drama. Hopefully I'll get over this melancholia and move forward and hopefully achieve more than I ever thought and more that I ever will caught up in the refrain of past hurts. I want to say I don't care, but I do, I want to say to heck with you, but I'm hurt. knowing that that people who I considered important didn't think I was important enough to give me a proper goodbye.
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