My mind right now is a chaos. I am thinking of so many things all at once and I'm not sure I am able to sort through them simply. Plus together with this jumbled thoughts are jumbled feelings and emotions that affect me, I feel like daily.
Physically, going through menopause is such a roller coaster ride. Some days are good, some days are better (being super positive here! hahaha. It's really such a piss). The hotflashes are insufferable, its one of the things I hate the most about it. Emotional mood swings second. I feel like I'm depressed but I know that its just the hormones talking, so I'm trying to take things in stride.
I'm also not very healthy right now. I am so overweight and its taking a toll on my body and on my mind as well. I know I need to get healthy or else I might suffer much much more than I am now.
Hopefully everything will fall into place soon and I'll be my more happy self once again, but right now, well, I'm in the middle of chaos right now and not feeling very happy. My writing helps me. I hope soon I can do something that can help me be better. Ha! My writing isn't making any sense right now. So, I'm gonna stop clacking at my keyboard for now and just pray that things do get better for me sooner rather than later.
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