I just feel so weird-ed out... I feel like everytime I am so intent on gaining something... forcefully praying, hoping, wishing, putting it all in my mind.. some event would take place and would have me questioning it... if I am asking too much for it, and God is telling me to go wish/pray for something else...
I dunno... I just feel like things should be looking up... and that I am so near my goal... and then splat! it will all come crushing down on me and I am back where I started at.
Its such a challenge to stay happy and stay positive when things keep going somewhere you know you don't want to go. I just want to have things go smoothly and that I manifest my dreams finally. I feel like I need to do something to get myself back into the good mood again and I am trying to get it to it now, but that's proving to be a challenge as well. What can I do to get me back to the pushing mode? What will it take for me not to get so affected by things that are happening around me. I know that it will all end in the best manner it could but sometimes, it just gets to me and I feel the urge to just up and give up.
Lord, get me through this day and get me through all these challenges and let me come out the victor!
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