First and foremost, I realize that today is my cousin's birthday. I've lost touch with them and has no desire to reconnect, but that doesn't make me forget that its her birthday. Ha! Just wanted to get that out of the way.
Today is a mixed emotions day for me.
I've completed the practicum for the Basic Formation Seminar of our Diocese and I'm proud of myself. I was nervous and kept making pronunciation mistakes but overall, I think I did good. so that was a happy part.
I also served in the Mass, so that was another plus that I continue to be able to attend the Holy Eucharist, some people can only hope to do in the midst of the pandemic. My faith I believe is stronger than ever and I do hope that this continues on to the right path.
The minus side. howells, what else or who else can get me so down. MY IN-LAWS! My son was bitten by their dog for the 2nd time. We have agreed that if that happens again that we will get rid of the dog. Now, they don't want to do that... Just to keep the peace, I said okay but the dog needs to be caged or at the very least keep tied up and coming from the parish this morning, what do I see? The dog under their car, all free and carefree! and we just had the conversation yesterday, there wasn't even any attempt to try to keep their end of the bargain. It is so frustrating and sad for me that they value the dog more than people. It is soooo sad but heck that's what they want then what can I do when as always my voice even on the top of my lungs, cannot be heard.
Well, I'm giving myself an ultimatum. I need to get out of here and soon. This house was never a home for me and I am finding it harder and harder and harder to hold my temper, anger and all that in. So, I know that my life will be much much much better when I leave this house. I'm giving myself a year to be able to save up enough money to at the very least rent a house and if I'm blessed enough then buy our own house.
I wanted to preserve my husband's share in this house since I know that if we leave, he will have no more right to this house, as we are here but doesn't he have any, what more if we leave. LOL I want to get mad but nothing will come out of it, so I just keep it all in and forgive and ignore the things that plague my mind.
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